Motherhood Institute
In an interview with Gabe Hudson, Merve Emre states:
“I do feel quite frustrated in general reading the motherhood discourse of the past decade or so. I realized how inattentive a great deal of it is to the child. I do think we need to recognize that children are people.”
~Merve Emre
It was referring to this article she wrote for the New Yorker:
Gabe stated he was abused by his mother as a child.
Children are not just people- they are the SOUL of the world- “Anima Mundi”.
I think we need to recognize also that mothers are people too.
As we desperately try to maintain some semblance of ourselves, often our children are denied our loving presence- it may look “inattentive” from an outside perspective but really we are just trying to hold it together.
Mother and child go together- we can no longer support endeavors or conversations around any kind of child abuse that singles out the child and excludes the mother - because the mother is 100% abused in our society.
The sweet picture of the motherhood women are sold is no where near the reality of our situations.
All mothers LOVE their children- what we don’t love is living in a hierarchical society that straps us to our children and gives us zero self-agency over our lives, Meaning-no agency over our bodies , time, energy, wants and basic needs like a shower, hot meal and sleep.
Motherhood is just another institution and there is no freedom in it and rarely resources available to replenish our energy.
The market sells us a million “self-care” products but without the help of community, self-care is futile.
We might get a soak in a hot bath to return to an exhausting mess- the kind that cannot be left unattended because it is toxic-so any replenishment of energy we gained is immediately sucked out of us.
Many mothers cannot afford those extra luxuries. 83% of single parents are mothers- often in poverty.
Think about your life.
Think about how you get to choose when you wake up, when to shower, when to eat, what type of work you want to do, when you want to do it, where you want to do it, when you want to clean- think about how you get to leave the house without having to dress another human being, how you get to have your morning breakfast without having to chase down another human being to put pants on, how you are only responsible for your own bodily functions and not that of another human being…
You really don’t know the freedom you have.
I dare you to be a mother in a patriarchal system. I dare you.
This means provide, protect, preserve and nurture in every way possible before you get to yourself- do it for 6 months straight- no breaks- no sleep, cleaning up the throw up and giant messes that kids make- try it- see if you survive it, see if you don’t become homeless, see if you don’t want to kill yourself or someone else in your utter oppression and exhaustion- no escape- no help-no breaks 24/7 job- no payment.
You think you would remain calm, cool and collected?
There is no possible way. This is why abuse happens- it isn’t because moms are mean and do not love their kids- it’s because NO ONE loves the mother.
Why a mother’s rage you ask?
You think you want to be a mother?
You think you are missing out?
Imagine what it would feel like being tied to two trains where one side of your body is tied to a train going in one direction and your other half is tied to a different train going in the opposite direction at full speed.
This is what labor feels like.
I do not exaggerate.
The skeleton is literally being pulled apart- doctors call this “dilation”- so you never understand the depth of that pain.
As this happening- ever single cell of your body is popping open and changing- coming alive in a brand new way- as a child is born- so is a mother and
Guess what?
Every thought we had of the kind of mother we dreamed of being, the kind of mother that society sells us- IS GONE.
We don’t GET to CHOOSE what kind of Mother we want to be.
No.
We get to be an accumulation of unresolved trauma that has been buried and silenced for MANY many generations. 👆THIS is WHY the rage.
Still want to blame your mother?
No one ever tells us we will worry for the rest of our lives, never sleep again and never get what we want.
Still want kids?
We vow to never be like our own mothers then surprise ourselves when we become them by no choice of our own.
Generational trauma is a black magic trick.
Trauma to the Mother- earth and human- is a deliberate design within the system- This is HOW dominant and control systems remain in tact. Name of the game- Keep the Mother down.
It’s called inter-generational trauma.
This
is
WHY
the
RAGE.
Rage is ancient.
It is a mother’s RAGE that will move mountains and create a new system of living for ALL of humanity because we LOVE our children…
Because there is NOTHING more cruel, evil and abusive to a mother or a child then to ensure the child turns against their own mother-towards a patriarchy -a patriarchy specifically designed to ensure your mother’s insanity.
The child only sees a “crazed” mom- the child cannot see what patriarchy has done to her-On purpose.
To the child-patriarchy look like the calm cool collected “safe” thing-it’s NOT.
Is it any surprise that it takes ZERO responsibility for itself and what it has done to Mother and Child?
I am doing the work-breaking my patterns-taking responsibility for myself when I screw up, yet in system designed against me, without village to tend to my child’s needs while I replenish-I am still so far from the kind of life I wanted for my child. That’s why I am demanding change.
Mother Lands Foundation and Network of Villages.
A regenerative new system designed out of a Mother’s RAGE.
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